Fall 2020 Home Tour

 There's something about Fall, when the world slows down and gets re-energized.  The days are shorter, which means we're drawn into our homes a little longer each day.  I think that's one of the reasons Fall is my favorite season to decorate!  (Well, that may be a lie... I don't think it tops the joy I feel when I decorate for Christmas.  But maybe part of the fulfillment in bringing out the pumpkins is knowing that very soon, the Christmas tree will follow!)


But until this space is filled with fir trees and twinkling lights, I'm good with pumpkins and sunflowers!





We'll start at our front door.  Welcome to our home :)






The pictures you see are what our front porch looks like right now... (sidewalk chalk, included).  I was hoping that by the time I went to post this blog, the mums would decide to bloom, at least a little.  I ended up getting one yellow and one burnt orange colored pot of mums.  Soon enough, these will add the bright colors our porch needs!  For now, the only Fall color is from the faux daisies bushel in the watering can.


We will also soon add some pumpkins, once we take a trip to the pumpkin patch :)


Now, let's go inside...


Until this year, I really didn't have much in the way of Fall decor.  And what I did have was a "hodge"podge (enter the Leo Dicaprio smug laugh meme here) of things that I either picked up at a yard sale, or things that my Mom was ready to get rid of that I gladly intercepted.  It isn't that I dislike any of the things I already had (actually, the Fall garland I set out on our mantle is still one of my favorite pieces!).  But I decided it was time to invest in some good pieces that I knew I would enjoy setting out every year.  


One of the first things you see when you walk in our front door is our fireplace - my favorite part of the house to decorate every season!




The garland is one that was given to me by my Mom, and it is still one of my favorite pieces to use every Fall.  With all of the new things I purchased this year, I kept this garland in mind to try to add to its colors.  I love the traditional orange, yellow and reds.  I wanted to make those colors pop in other areas of the living room, too.


On the far side of our mantel are three of my favorite pieces that stay here year round: the two copper lanterns and the wrapped canvas one of my best friend's made with my favorite Bible verse.  I used a couple of pieces from a faux pumpkin pack from Hobby Lobby to fill in the empty spaces.  The larger red-orange pumpkin with the gold stem is another Target Bullseye Playground purchase :)  When I bought it, I wasn't sure where I would use it, but I loved the color so much I decided to get it.  And I'm glad I did - this color pops out in a few other places in the living room, and I'm glad it made its way on the mantel.



One of those places where that red-orange color pops is the couch.  Last year, I purchased this pumpkin pillow from Homegoods.  And one of the things on my wish list this year was a nice throw that would compliment the colors of the pumpkins and draw out some of the bright colors in the garland.  I felt like this "bubble throw" from Kirkland's did both!  And (bonus) it is so soft!!




This tray is new this year - it was my Mom's, and was a dark brown wood stain with some red script on it (I think it was some sort of vintage stamp).  But I wanted to brighten it up, since the coffee table is already a dark wood stain.  So I unscrewed the wood oval from the black tray, and painted it white.  I am actually thinking of going back over the white paint at some point with a dark gel that my Mom has used on some of her furniture to add some depth.  But for now, I like how it looks.  The dark Fall colors add a good contrast to the bright white.  To brighten the table up a bit more this year, I also added this striped table runner which was another Target dollar spot find!




Behind the couch sits my grandparents' old piano.  I added a few touches to the top - one of my favorite things being this "Fall Sweet Fall" sign from Hobby Lobby.  I love the script and the farmhouse look.  I got the black and white striped fabric pumpkin from Hobby Lobby, as well.  The eucalyptus sprig is from the Target Bullseye Playground, along with the cream colored pumpkin sitting beside our Willow Tree figures.  In the lantern, I just added a couple of pieces leftover from the mantel decor (a small orange pumpkin and a faux succulent).  I wanted to keep this area subtle so it wouldn't compete too much with the mantel and fireplace.  I'm pleased with how it turned out :)



Between our living room and kitchen is this wall that lines our staircase.  I wanted to keep things a little simple on this entryway table -- if you can call it that.  Really, we don't have an entryway, but this table is the closest thing to our front door, so that's what I call it.



I've used this picture of Joey at the pumpkin patch from when he was 7 months old every year since I took it.  I need an updated Fall picture of him, but honestly, even if I had one I think I would still use this one :)




The landscape of the picture lends itself to the decor I get to put around it -- the truck, the "Farm Fresh pumpkins" sign I got from Hobby Lobby, and of course, lots of pumpkins!  The faux sunflowers I have had for years (I believe they were my Mom's).  I just arranged them in this ceramic pitcher I picked up this year from Target's Bullseye Playground, along with the gray ceramic truck.  The small pumpkin in the truck bed is one that fell off of a garland - it fits perfectly!


Now, let's head into the kitchen...





I didn't add much, but the few pieces I did put in here gave it the look I wanted in the end.  




On our table, I put out this pumpkin table runner that my Mom bought for me from Homegoods years ago.  I love the light watercolor pattern - it's subtle enough that it blends in with the other colors that stay in our kitchen year round.  


From Wal Mart, I found this cute fox with the bandana.  Something about him reminds me of Joey :)  He was under $4 and one of my favorite things I bought this season.  (My Mom loved him so much, she got one too).  The small white ceramic pumpkin was another Target dollar spot find - for $1 I'm wishing I had bought more!  


The white pitcher with the terra cotta finish on the bottom also came from Target's dollar spot.  I added some eucalyptus that I found at Wal Mart for $2!  I learned from a girl on YouTube that Wal Mart is a great place to buy greenery, and she was right!  This has the look and feel of the higher priced greenery you'd find at JoAnn's and Hobby Lobby.  And on the other side of the pitcher is an orange yarn pumpkin I purchased a couple years ago from the Target dollar spot.

 

Besides the fireplace, one of my favorite areas to decorate every season is our coffee bar :)  It only takes a few small touches to change the look of it, and I feel like this small little area on our counter adds a lot to the overall theme of the kitchen.  


This year, I was able to find a Fall sign to hang as a back drop - this Pumpkin Patch sign came from (you guessed it) the Target dollar spot for $5.  It was easy to add in decor pieces with that went along with the sign.  



I bought another one of the ceramic trucks from Target, like the one on our entryway table to go here.  The small pumpkin is another one that fell off of a garland.  And the "gather" mug is one that was a gift from my Mom from Target's Hearth and Hand line last year.  



I used some of the decor I had left over after decorating the living room to add some subtle touches by our sink.  The faux red-orange mums came from the Target dollar spot, and I didn't know when I bought them how well they would match the light orange pumpkins my Mom and I got from Hobby Lobby.  The white cake stand and the small white pitcher are both also from the Target dollar spot, from this past Spring.  I love being able to leave out some of the same pieces year round and just change out small details to give it a new look each season.








I looked and looked for this small leaf garland at different Targets, and figured I wouldn't find it after the Fall line had been released a little over two months.  Then on a day I went in to grab dog food, there it was.  I thought I would use it on our coffee table, with a candle in the middle.  But I liked the way the tray turned out, and didn't want to switch anything out.  I tried it in a few different places before I went to put some dirty dishes in the sink and saw the empty command hook above the sink on our kitchen window.  I know it's meant to be a garland, but I think the wreath look is just what the kitchen needed to make it feel more like Fall, without trying too hard!  My absolute favorite part about it being in our window is the way bright yellows and oranges light up when the morning sun comes through our kitchen.  Just like it was meant to be!


On the other side of the sink, I kept the Fall decor to a minimum.  I changed out the hand soap, which aside from the scent of "Farmhouse Pumpkin" doesn't look very Fall.  But I added this felt pumpkin from the Bullseye Playground to compliment it.  I also had this boxwood sprig from last year's Fall line at Target's BP to the glass vase I keep there year round.  Every season, I change out the florals that go in it, and it makes it easy to change up the look when I need to (and doesn't cost much at all!)




I also keep a small jar of essential oils on this tray - this one in Lemongrass.  I learned recently that if you put a few drops of this (any scent) in your disposal, it helps make your kitchen smell fresh!  I like this scent for Fall, but you can use any essential oil to get the effect.



In this small corner of our kitchen, I leave out this marble tray that I got from my cousin for Christmas one year.  (It's a Threshold tray from several years ago, but I know they still sell similar ones).  This is another area I can decorate every few months with just a few pieces to get the look I'm going for in the kitchen.  This year, I just added a pumpkin scented candle I've had for years, a faux pumpkin from Hobby Lobby and a "Happy Harvest" wooden sign from the Dollar Tree.


If you know me at all, you know how much I love Disney!  I recently moved this chalkboard "Be Our Guest" plate to this corner, and I know there's nothing Fall about "Beauty and the Beast" but seeing this in the corner while I have to do the dishes makes me happy.  So for now, this will probably stay here :)


That's it for the House Tour this Fall!  I hope you enjoyed seeing how I used some of the new pieces I bought this year.  Thank you for following along, and Happy Fall!!



"The trees say they're tired, they've born too much fruit; Charmed all the wayside, there's no dispute; Now shedding leaves, they don't give a hoot - La-di-da, di-da-di-dum, 'tis Autumn!" ~Nat King Cole

To Joey, on your second birthday

*This is one of my greatest Mom fails... I am posting this over 6 months after my son's actual birthday - HALF a year, guys!  And I have no good excuse.  Less than one week after Joey's 2nd Birthday party, the world turned upside down because of COVID-19, and I have had all the time in the world (being stuck at home most of these past 6 months) to get this posted.  I thought of letting it continue to sit in my drafts, along with several others that never made it on the blog, or just deleting it.  But I couldn't bring myself to do either.  So here we are, six months later.  But I didn't want to just not share because, however embarrassingly late.. this isn't about how I let time get away.  This is for you, Joey.*
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Dear Joey,

Tonight I said "goodnight" to you for the last time as a One year old.  Tomorrow morning (at 6:09am) you will wake up and be TWO!

I have done a lot of thinking about your life - how much you've grown since that tiny boy who changed our world two years ago.  I've thought about what kind of person you will become, and how you'll continue to learn new things, and keep showing us your personality.  I want to write as many of my thoughts about your future as I can so you'll always know - no matter where your life takes you - that right now, in this moment, this is all I hope for you!  Happy Birthday, Joey.  Mommy loves you.


You're growing and changing, you're just at the start.
You'll keep learning new things that will make you grow smart.
You're curious, adventurous, and there's lots still to see!
You have so many who love you - most of all, your Dad and me.

You have eyes that smile,  and a laugh for the ages
You love giving hugs - I hope that never changes!

I can tell you’re a dreamer,
You love stories, music and Disney.
And who knew how long a stick and some dirt
could make you smile and keep you busy.

I know you won't always love trains and toys that have wheels,
But I hope you always find joy in simple things with good feels.

I pray you'll be kind, that you're always humble and honest.
Even when it means owning up to things that won't be remembered the fondest.

There will come a day when you’ll probably push me away
Instead of wanting me to hold you and when I have to leave, crying for me to stay.

I know Mommy won't always be your best friend.
But I pray that doesn't happen until you find a girl who will see your heart and love you to the very end!
This probably seems like a lot - "Mom, I'm only TWO!"
But I know time goes by fast, so I’m already praying for these things for you.

In what will feel like a moment and a lifetime with each passing day,
You'll be going to school, moving out, and life will sweep you away.
So I'm saying this now, because our time is not promised -
(Although I pray and hope that I'm with you for a hundred more years, if I'm honest)
Through every trial, every triumph, every success and each challenge,
Know that I love you! More than 100 years together could manage.


I will be with you, for always - whether here on this earth or in heaven.
And you can carry my love every day, from now until you're one hundred and eleven.


There's so much more I could say, but tomorrow we’ll just enjoy being young!
We’ll eat cake, play outside and with your favorite train, Tommy.
So, I'll leave off with this:

I love you, Joey - Happy Birthday sweet boy, love Mommy!


Happy Birthday, Sweetheart!



  




 

  


"Promise me you'll always remember:  You're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think, {and loved more than you'll ever know!}"  A.A. Milne



Happy 6 months, Joey!

It occurred to me recently that there's an unfortunate gap between my post before and after Joey's birth.  I went from the joy of sharing his nursery to the rather grim post about his health scare.  I have to get better about sharing things along the way.  (I am so sorry, friends.)

So today, I thought I would share something fun - our boy is 6 months old this week!


It's crazy to think we have had him for half a year!  Everyone says it, but it's because it's true: time flies!  I remember being so emotional the day before Joey turned one month old.  It was a culmination of a lot of feelings, but the one that stood out most to me was knowing how fast everything would feel to me for the rest of his life.  There are several milestones to go, I know.  But I find myself looking back at photos and videos (which there are thousands of at this point, no matter how often I clean them out) and I cannot believe that in 6 short months, we have gotten to experience his birth, bring him home, watch our dogs and family love him, see his first grins, listen to his first laughs, see him roll over, and watch him take in the world around him and learn something new every day.

I'm not sure I can describe the way the days and weeks go by in the blink of an eye.  So rather than type, I thought I would let time itself do the talking for me.  Here are some of my favorite moments we've gotten to share with our boy so far.



Happy six months, sweet Joey.  You truly are our greatest adventure!

Love, Mommy

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"I knew when I met you an adventure was going to happen." A. A. Milne


Fear Is a Liar...

There is a song I heard on the radio the day I went to the hospital to be induced to have Joey.  I hadn't heard it before and haven't heard it since.  But the words that stuck with me were, "fear is a liar; it will rob your rest, steal your happiness.  Cast your fear in the fire, because fear: he is a liar."  I'm sure I'm just late to the game and it's a song that has been around for a while.  (I don't listen to the radio too often).  But because of the way I heard it, I think God meant it for me, to calm my worries.  Because there were a lot of them that day!

I wished up to the minute we set foot in the hospital that Joey would decide to come on his own.  I didn't want to force him out.  And I had all the normal fears any expectant mother has about labor and delivery.  But in the end, Joey arrived safely.  And we are so incredibly blessed to have a healthy baby boy!  But God whispered those words to me from that song over and over again in the hours that led up to Joey's delivery.

As I write this, Joey is 3 months old.  I wish I could tell you how many times I have stopped in the past 3 months and asked myself (and God), "is this real?"  I knew I would love our boy, but I had no idea how much!  And I knew I would still have fears and concerns for him as his mother, but I didn't know how those would take effect until recently.  To understand the past few weeks, you have to know where it started: in the delivery room.

Joey's delivery did not go as smooth as we hoped.  (I can almost hear anyone who has ever had a child say, "Do they ever?")  I was scheduled to be induced 8 days after his due date.  He made his big entrance into the world 10 days after his due date.  The happy ending to the story is that he and I both made it to the other side of the delivery, healthy and happy.  But there were some bumps in the road.  About 30 hours after being induced, Joey dropped suddenly, and his heart rate started going down.  When the nurse still couldn't get a good heart rate after having me turn, she had Blaine pull the "help" string, and within seconds, about a dozen nurses rushed in to help get Joey out.  Luckily, I had an epidural, so I was able to deliver Joey - but they did have to use forceps to help him out.  The whole event (from the time the string was pulled for help, to the time they had Joey out on the table) was around 14 minutes.  

The hitch in all of this was that they had to use forceps.  Every time one of the attendings would tell me to push, she would look over to the other nurses and say, "I need that room ready!"  I knew if I couldn't get Joey out, they were going to do an emergency C-section.  So I prayed (and pushed) hard.  And in all that chaos, I could still hear that song.  One of the things that Blaine and I recalled looking back on the craziness was that the same attending who told me to push was the one who (before using the forceps) rattled off about 100 warnings and side effects to us about the forceps, (I guess to get our final approval).  It was exactly like the muffled jargon you hear slipped into a commercial about any kind of medication.  ("Could cause brain damage, nerve damage, optical damage, skull deformation, ..........." and a whole list of long medical terms I can't even recall.  And certainly had no time to ask at that moment.)  I just wanted Joey out - safely!  I knew his heart rate was still dropping, and I wanted them to do whatever they had to do to get him out of there fast.  And they did!

If I could go back and change things, I don't know that I would have done it any different.  Because the outcome was that Joey picked right up and was breathing and crying all on his own within seconds.  But, unfortunately, one of those side effects that the attending had rattled off was exactly what we were left with once Joey was born.  

For weeks after Joey's birth, we noticed a slight difference between his eyes.  One didn't quite open all the way.  We had friends and family members ask about it.  And at his 2 month checkup, we asked his doctor about it.  After flashing a light in his eyes several times, and taking a closer look, he started offering suggestions of what it could be and went to type in some things in the computer.  (I think the fears for Blaine and I started then and there.)  Two pediatric opthamologists later, we were told that Joey has a condition where his pupil does not dilate correctly and one eyelid is not as strong as the other.  Something that most likely happened because of his traumatic birth.  Essentially, it's nerve damage between his eye and his brain that either took effect at birth, or developed over time because of something compressing on those nerves.  This latter is the kind we didn't want - because that meant that something was growing: a tumor.  To be sure this could be ruled out, Joey was scheduled for an MRI.

So, this past week, Blaine and I took our 3 month old boy to Duke Children's Hospital, praying with every step that we wouldn't be making more trips there because of a tumor in our little boy.  The procedure itself was okay, but incredibly painful (physically, for Joey; emotionally for me and Blaine).  I could share with you the details of the day - how painful it was to watch the nurses try to find a good vein for his I.V. while he cried for what felt like an hour; how I wanted to throw myself inside the tube and comfort him when he woke up (twice) during the scan; how my heart ached in ways I didn't know it could when I heard cries from him I've never heard before.  As if he was crying and asking, "Why is this happening?" and, "please make them stop, Momma."  I was torn apart.  And all the while, feeling so guilty, because I must have passed a dozen parents that day with children in conditions I cannot imagine watching your child go through.


After the longest 5 hours, we were being discharged and finally sent home.  I wish I could tell you we were skipping to the car and felt so good to have that behind us.  (And it DID feel great to know that part was over!)  But, I felt sick.  I thought several times on the way out that I was going to throw up, and came very close to leaning over in the bushes right outside the front entrance.  I don't know if it was the stress of what I'd watched Joey go through, or the fear of the news that might come later.  

I'll kill the suspense we felt for two days afterward and tell you that everything came back as "normal."  Our Joey has no tumor!  

So, what is the point of this?  "You thought Joey might have a tumor, but he doesn't.  Okay." *Clap, Clap*  The thought that some people would read this and think that almost kept me from writing this.  But I'm sharing this with you all anyway, because of this truth God made real to me:  fear is a liar.  

For me the lie was, "your son and your happiness are too good to be real.  It's all about to be taken away."  But God doesn't work like that; God doesn't love like that.  "For the Lord will not cast off forever, but, though he cause grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of his steadfast love; for he does not afflict from his heart or grieve the children of men." Lamentations 3:31-33
God takes no delight in seeing me (or my son) suffer.  He doesn't cast fear in my heart and pull up a chair and say, "let's see how she handles this one."  Instead, He fights my fears with His truth.  And the truth is, "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.  They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:21

That song has crept in my head more times in the past month than I want to admit.  And sometimes it actually makes me angry.  I don't want that song to be a theme for me.  But God is showing me it needs to be on my heart.  The message is one I need to be reminded of - daily.  Because things are going to happen to Joey (and others I love) that I can't control.  And while all I want to do is hold him and let him know how much I love him, I can't always protect him.  The thing God has reminded me of is Joey was His long before he was born into the world as my son.  And He knows every cut, scrape, and bruise Joey will ever have.  And most importantly, He loves Joey far more than I can understand.

Whatever the struggle, I hope God continues to anchor me to His promise: "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7

I'm far from a perfect person, and even more imperfect parent.  We are so blessed to have Joey, and I take for granted that he is as healthy and happy as he is.  It's easy to have a "sound mind" when all is well.  But I know there will be days when that doesn't come easy.  I know there will be more bumps in the road; more lies that I will have to seek God's truth to combat.  But I hope I keep this lesson close to my heart.

And I hope somehow, this helps you with whatever fear you may have.

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.  For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ."
2 Corinthians 1:3-5

Baby Hodge's Nursery

This one has been a long time coming... I am pinching myself that this thing we have prayed for has become a reality.  And I am thrilled I get to write and share this with you all.

Blaine and I have prayed over a child of our own for a long time.  There was some heartache and feelings of hopelessness along the way.  And my heart goes out to so many families we know who have experienced pain far greater than ours.  This past Summer, we were overjoyed to learn we were pregnant, and prayed even harder for a smooth pregnancy and a healthy baby.  God answered our prayers in a huge way -- we are so happy to say that our baby boy is doing great, and is expected to arrive March 1st!  (Or, whenever he decides he is ready!)

Of the many, many things I look forward to doing with this little one, getting his space ready is one I've been able to enjoy in the meantime.  I would be lying if I said that this room all came together after we found out we were expecting.  The truth is, I have dreamed of little pieces of this room for a long time.  I've picked up things here and there at yard sales and thrift stores, thinking at the very least, I could pass them on to someone else for their nursery.  But I truly hoped one day I would get to bring them together in our own home, for our own child.  Seeing it in reality is even better than I had pictured.  No, it's not perfect, but to me it is almost as beautiful and miraculous that I can stand here and see it as I can the sonogram pictures of our son.

So with that, let's get into the room tour... Welcome to Baby Hodge's nursery!


I'll tell you first off that the only piece of furniture we purchased for this room was the crib.  The dresser, bookcase, and the night stand were all pieces we had around the house.  We just cleaned them out, (I gave the night stand a fresh coat of paint), and moved them into this room.  And for all intents and purposes, it all came together.

It should come as no surprise that I chose to incorporate a lot of Disney into his room.  "Most of all, Winnie the Pooh."  In a funny way, it all started with this little Roo.

DIY Weathered Wood Headboard


Hey Guys!

It's been decided: I am terrible at this blogging thing.  So, I am trying something new... welcome to my first blog/vlog combo!  (Let's see how this goes).

It has been forever since I've shared any DIY house projects.  But rather than write an instructional guide along with some photos, I decided I would just bring you guys along for the steps, and let you watch it in action.



After years of saving, Blaine and I recently bought a King bed (*claps*)!  I won't tell you how old our Queen bed was, but I will tell you that I may or may not have graduated from Junior High, High School, and College during its lifetime...  so, it was overdue.

Before we even bought the King mattress, we've had a King size headboard sitting in our shed that was given to us by my brother and sister in law when they moved.  Where did they get the headboard?  So glad you asked.  Remember the fireplace makeover?  The same handyman who helped build that, built this headboard.  Our good friend Tim... I think everyone needs a Tim! His talents abound!

The headboard was a beautiful, unfinished piece -- I wish I could tell you the type of wood he used, but I have no idea.  Blaine and I knew we wanted to either stain or paint - Blaine wanted to stain it, I wanted to paint it (surprise).  But we were (meaning, I was) undecided about what color would look best in keeping with our bedroom.  So I went Pinterest hunting.  And I found a nice compromise.  (If only Pinterest could solve every stumbling block so easily).

I found a "weathered wood" look, which is literally a mixture of both: stain and paint.  And the best part: it comes out looking gray!  I felt like Clark Griswold plugging in the Christmas lights (when they actually worked)!


You'll see the process in the video, but the gist is to stain the wood first, let it dry, then mix one part paint with one part water, and paint it as you would any piece of furniture.  Except instead of letting it dry, you take a lint free rag (we just used an old t shirt) and wipe the paint away, so you end up seeing the wood grain through the paint.  In the end, it didn't turn out exactly like I'd pictured, but it didn't disappoint me, either!  There are places I could have gone heavier or lighter on the paint, but I will say this is a very forgiving project. There isn't any right or wrong way to do this, but more just playing with it until you "get it like you like it" (Ben Harper, anyone?)  Anyway, this is one Pinterest "pin" I can check off the list!  There are about 800 others I haven't tried, but I might soon!

I promise I will get better about posting content for you guys!  Summer is so close, and I can guarantee I will be spending a lot more time with a paintbrush in my hand and a DIY idea in my head :)  In the meantime, leave me a comment to let me know how you like the video vs. reading a blog post (like I did with the fireplace makeover).

Thanks for reading & watching!
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"Think left and think right and think low and high.  Oh, the thinks you can think up if you only try!" ~Dr. Seuss